Loosing One

Baby S,
I learned last week that we had lost you. There was something wrong and you just didn't make it. We had just gotten used to the idea that you would be a part of our lives, and then you were gone. Daddy and I are upset and just not sure what to think yet. We are each grieving for you in our own ways.

People don't talk about early miscarriages. It's like a unspoken rule, a secret. To be excited about a baby one day and the next learn something is not right. I've gone through a lot of emotions the last 2 weeks. I feel sadness and at the same time calm. I want to blame myself, like there was something I could have done differently. There just wasn't something right with this baby it was not my fault at all.

Soon There Will Be Three

Baby S,
You really know how to surprise me! We were not expecting you at all. I was shocked to learn you had already been growing for a couple of weeks without me knowing. Daddy and I are excited for you and scared since we don't know what we're doing yet. You are the size of a teeny-tiny seed today and we can't wait for you to get bigger.

(June 9)

Not an Announcement

For those of you who happen to stumble upon here, this is not an announcement. L and I are not expecting a child and will (hopefully) not be for a year or two. I wanted to have this address reserved for when we are expecting.